Today, the last day of something
I once knew to be true
My boy, small and frail
Limited in his days
Crawls into my arms
Fills them with love
The sun permeates my skin
Gratitude vibrates through my being
Yet still, I feel the loom
Perhaps part of my timeless soul
Keeping me grounded in reality
I see this moment
I enter into the moment
I romanticize it
Surely, just this one time this will stay
I feel the gravity of this moment all the more
And here, in this breath I understand love in a new way
I’d like to keep this moment,
Grasp it, call it forever.
Sink into the feeling, that this is the way it will always be
But it won’t. It will change. Everything changes.
In the end, is anything the same as it was?
Is there anything, held within the walls of time
That we can truly call our own?
And so, love invades my vision and my meek understanding of this life all the more
Here in this moment, my soul rejoices
And when the times comes
Without question, I will weep just the same
With time brings necessary dying
Even the reflection of my face
Staring back at me today
Isn’t one I recognize
As my boy wiggles out from underneath
The tight grasp I realized I had on him
He looks back to catch my unforgiving gaze...
“For our good” His tender little eyes say to me
“For my good” I repeat
In this moment
In my grief
And in my hope